Tom's Journal...

5/18/99

My stamina is very low for now, it surely will get better. I have had a glimpse of a better life, and am surviving to see that.

I have had to re-learn everything from breathing, to speaking, to writing, to walking. I have had to re-learn how to trust someone-my payee has not left my life this whole time, and frankly I now, do not expect her to. For now my new life precludes "romantic relationships" of any kind, and both she and I [it is clear] have come to accept that. Neither of us can know when I might be able to handle that again, if ever.

I have a small dog, much like the one my adopted father had, but I treat her differently. Of course I also did not send my son off to boot camp with bruises all over his back side either... My dog Lacey, is not spoiled, but is indeed greatly loved. I have never been an abuser and have no reason at this late date, to become one, in any fashion.

So I find that there may be something inside me worth salvaging, I may eventually be able to decrease or stop my Serzone intake...

It is getting late, Thank You for reading...

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